Satori – what it felt like when I reached it
I have recently reached the state of Satori – that which Buddhists call the awakening. Today, I had a desire to write about what happens after. Perhaps one day I may write about how I got here, but that doesn’t currently interest me.
At first, I was in a state of bliss; the universe had presented all the knowledge to me and I was an inch bigger in every direction. I felt happiness and fulfilment, my depression, anxiety and negativity were instantly in check and I threw away my anti depressants – to date, I take no medication.
Next, I felt a deep, a very deep state of connection with everything around me. Notably, I got frustrated with the fact that I was surrounded by loved ones who were still asleep. After frustration passed, sadness settled. I felt the sadness of the world when I thought of all those who are yet to wake up, and I wept sincerely. And then all goes back to how it used to be, just a few inches higher, a few octaves louder and so on.
After some time had passed I realised the game my loved ones and I are playing. I can even say I am still playing the same game with them to date. As G. K. Chesterton puts it:
But now a great thing in the street
Seems any human nod,
Where shift in strange democracy
The million masks of God.
I understand the endeavour. The game we are all playing is the game God is playing, namely to get so lost through the play of life that God ceases to know who and what he is. This is the ultimate game of the divine, playing that it is not God. This kind of realisation can only be understood and a person such as myself obtained Satori by realising the game and calling it for what it is.
I’ll leave you with this; this is one thing, if any, you should consider:
What you desire before Satori is not the same as what you desire after. So, if this is true, what is desire?